FIRST MAJOR STUCK/PB in 11 months

As I have written about I have been struggling with restriction - not even knowing if I really had a band in there since I had been able eat anything with no real problems.   Well. . . . . NOT ANYMORE! 
If you read a couple of posts ago I had gone for a fill early last week and have been noticing restriction and have had to be much more careful than anytime in the previous 11 months. 

Last night I had a truly terrifying and unbelievably uncomfortable experience.   I am back in Bermuda for two days for business.  I was at a BBQ at a colleagues house with a couple other business/friends.  This man is an incredible host.  He has a beautiful home and is a real wine lover.  He opened up these amazing bottles of wine for us to taste.  I was fine with the wine and even had a couple pieces of cheese but when we started dinner - which was fabulous steak and sides - I got more stuck than ever.  I just had a few bites of steak but I didn't chew well enough.  And then I tasted this au gratin potato and that was it.  I took my cell phone and said I had to go check on my kids.  Went to the bathroom and immediately texted Nicole from Better Banded who advised me to make it all come up.  So I did. . again, and again, and again. . .and everytime I thought it was done I had to get back up and go back to the bathroom.  I have never experienced anything like this.   

Finally I told my host - who is a colleague/friend that I was just going through period of getting hot and must be having a flash from early menopause.  It was better than the alternative. . .I got food stuck in my lapband.  He was so nice about it and since I had lost my voice from my Christmas party the other night - everyone else just assumed I wasn't feeling well.  

So we left and I was so disappointed to not drink more of the amazing wine but that is just a sidenote. . .in the cab back to the hotel and it is still coming up.  I wisely sat in the front and bought napkins with me but I couldn't make it back to the hotel.  Had to get out of the cab on Front Street -and proceeded to PB again. 

Finally - I felt better.  So embarrassed though.  I just can not believe how violent this episode was.  It has changed everything and now I am once again very afraid of my band (as I was at first when I didn't know its limits). 

This morning I did manage to get a protein shake down and I am not hungry!  I think this new restriction is a function of my recent fill and also some stress - have been going through au pair issues once again which I will post about another time - and also other things with year-end at work.  Nothing I can't handle but it was a tough day/weekend before this happened. 

I have to say that after not feeling much restriction or benefits from the band for the last year - I am happy that I went through this.  I feel like it is giving me renewed hope that with the help of this tool I can finally lose the weight. 

Hope everyone is having a good week and I promise to update soon! 

xoxo Susan