I just spent 40 minutes typing my 6 month bandiversary post really pouring out my feelings and it was lost when trying to upload.
No time to write again now. Just had to share my frustration. It S***!!!!
Monday, June 20, 2011
Friday, June 3, 2011
Still here! Fill Update - I don't get it ?????
I read all your posts multiple times a day but I haven't been posting - I don't really know why. Things are fine - I would say still pretty status quo. I am at 225.4 which is down 39 lbs from my high. The lowest I have gotten is 221.4. My six month bandanniversary is June 20th and I was really hoping to be down 60 lbs but now will be thrilled if I get get closer to 50 lbs down which will be tough.
I had a slight fill earlier in the week and now am at 8.7 cc in my 11 cc band. I think that is so much to have in there but I still can eat pretty much anything I want and I don't get it. I have never PB'd. I have gotten stuck a couple of times - mostly from eating dry chicken too fast or one time a string cheese.
I have to admit that I am never really hungry and I know that it is the purpose of the band so from that aspect it is definitely doing its job. I guess where I am a bit disappointed/confused is the amount of food that I can still eat without any trouble at this high level of restriction. Has this happenned to anyone else? I know that the band is just a tool and I need to start thinking of it that way again and find my willpower to begin losing again. I think I was successful early on because I was so afraid of the band. Unfortunately not so afraid anymore.
The thing I still don't get when I read about some of you being so tight and PBing from water and only able to eat such small quantities that you need an unfill - why is that not happening to me. I know I should be glad on the one hand.
I guess it comes down to this unbelievable appetite I have and how much I love to eat - that is what got me to 265 lbs in the first place. I need to get it under control.
Any advice/suggestions please send my way!
I had a slight fill earlier in the week and now am at 8.7 cc in my 11 cc band. I think that is so much to have in there but I still can eat pretty much anything I want and I don't get it. I have never PB'd. I have gotten stuck a couple of times - mostly from eating dry chicken too fast or one time a string cheese.
I have to admit that I am never really hungry and I know that it is the purpose of the band so from that aspect it is definitely doing its job. I guess where I am a bit disappointed/confused is the amount of food that I can still eat without any trouble at this high level of restriction. Has this happenned to anyone else? I know that the band is just a tool and I need to start thinking of it that way again and find my willpower to begin losing again. I think I was successful early on because I was so afraid of the band. Unfortunately not so afraid anymore.
The thing I still don't get when I read about some of you being so tight and PBing from water and only able to eat such small quantities that you need an unfill - why is that not happening to me. I know I should be glad on the one hand.
I guess it comes down to this unbelievable appetite I have and how much I love to eat - that is what got me to 265 lbs in the first place. I need to get it under control.
Any advice/suggestions please send my way!